I might be a scrooge...

Yeap, I thought Mr. Rider was a scrooge, but I might be one too. My house is decorated and we have an awesome Christmas tree, we have some lights outside that haven't been lit up yet because we need some extension cords, we're going to Silver Dollar City on Sunday, we even have presents under the tree, but I just can't really seem to enjoy the fact that is Christmas time! I've tried playing some of my favorite Christmas music, but nothing...
I was actually thinking that if it wasn't for our kids, we probably wouldn't even have a tree or that many decorations. I hate shopping for people that have it all, it just seems like a waste of money, I would rather give it all to the Children's Home in Costa Rica or some other needy family. I even told my poor son that Santa didn't really exits!!! for crying outloud! We've never told them that Santa brings them presents but I don't want him to ruin Christmas for other kids in school, and apparently he said what I told him to somebody at school because he came back that day and told me "Mom, Santa is real if you believe in him" what was I supposed to say to that! "Yes, sweety you are right". Anyways, I guess maybe growing up, Christmas had such a different meaning for me. It was a celebration, but it was about Jesus. We did get one or 2 presents, but the most exciting part was to take groceries, clothes and some toys to needy families while singing Christian carols. Every Christmas Eve we would get together and read the Christmas story. I do miss my big family more around the Holidays, at least my sister will be here for Christmas this year. Sorry this is kind of a downer blog, but it is kind of sad when you think about how many people actually celebrate Christmas, but don't even know Jesus. What do they celebrate, really? I guess to them it's just the time a year when Santa comes to town.
Well, Ethan has his Christmas program tonite, and what can be better than those Christmas memories...